Limbo

Life is a journey--a journey we all must travel. At some points, the road is smooth and easily accessible; but at other points, the path is troublesome and often times discouraging. It's at these points on our path that define us....these moments are our defining moments.

I'm currently going through a troubling time in my life, uncertain of what my future holds for me and not knowing which way to turn. I find myself doubting who I am and where my life's journey will take me. A good friend of mine told me that these moments, moments where we fall and were discouragement enters in our hearts are the times that define us. He said, "this will be your defining moment if you let it...otherwise it will just be a bump in the road."

I'm currently waiting for SDSU to answer my petition and inform me whether or not they'll admit me as a Journalism major.

God, you sure do have a sense of humor. But it's times like this I trust that you know where my journey's end will take me, even if I can't see it.

Doubt

As light casts out shadows, doubts cast out fears
For the vast unknown lurks within the dark
Seeking uncertainty, feeding off tears.
It lurks within every corner of our hearts
Finding refuge in discouragement, hiding with fright
It prowls to find that one little hole
The place he can pounce; ready to fight.
Sinking in your heart, seeping in your soul.
When your heart starts to break, doubt finds its way in
Grinning and sneering with intentions to kill
It spreads and spreads towards every ounce of your skin
Until your heart once empty, He now fills.
Your darkest hour will come, but know there's still light
Strike doubt 'til the death--time to get up and fight.

Two Paths to Choose

What should I do?
Which path should I choose?
Which way should I go?
How would I know?

What should I do?
Which path should I choose?
Which one is right?
Do I stand up and fight?

What should I do?
Which path should I choose?
If I go the wrong way,
Do I continue and stay?

What should I do?
Which path should I choose?
These two paths diverge
But do they both swerve?

What should I do?
Which path should I choose?
What choice do I make?
What are the stakes?

I close my eyes
As I heave a great sigh
Before me these two paths lie,
For I'm stuck at the split
Which one is my fit?
I just keep asking myself "Oh, dear God why?"

For darkness lies between
And I can't see the scene
But where these two paths split,
I just need one light
So I can finish this plight
And continue God's lasting wish.

But no light will come
Unless from the sun
And it seems to be very cold
For darkness on this path
Seems like it will last
Just as it was foretold

So I close my eyes
And heave a great sigh
And choose a path to pursue
Not knowing if it's right
It's time to fight
This is the path I must choose.

The Empty Hole

A child tells his mother,
"Mommy I'm hurting on my tooth!
I'm not sure what's wrong with it,
but I think it might be loose!"

So the mother tells her child,
"It's quite alright dear.
You just have a loose tooth,
you have nothing to fear."

But the child was scared,
and didn't know what to say.
It was the first time in his life
he'd ever felt this way.

But it was more than just his tooth,
he looked up to her and said,
"Mommy what will happen,
if this feeling has no end?"

So she starred at him and said,
with a smile upon her face
"In life there are troubles
that will always come our way.

But the secret" she explained
"is not to turn away,
life is quite like this,
it's hard to explain."

Sooner or later
the child's tooth finally fell out,
where he then went to discover
the empty hole in his mouth.

He said, "Mommy I know what you meant,
what you said to me before.
'Cause my tooth is now gone
by my mouth is still sore.

Just like my tooth
in life there is lots of pain,
and it hurts and hurts
until it finally goes away.

But when the pain leaves you
it's not completely missing,"
He stuck his tongue in the hole
and slowly started lisping.

"See when the pain is gone
it leaves this big ole space,
And when there's nothing there
it feels like it's a waste.

But now I'm a big kid,
And a new tooth is gonna grow,
This is still painful,
but pretty soon it'll show.

The pain will be gone,
The hole will be full,
And in the end I'll know
how it felt to be pulled...

Once by your pain
And then by your joy
Cause the pain can only come
when I become a big boy!

So life is about holes
When your tooth falls out
But it has to do that
to make room in your mouth.

Because new teeth will come
And when they finally do,
They need room to fill
and you'll feel brand new!

The tooth can't fall
Without pain coming first
So life without goodness
has to have the worst.

Life is a mouth,
And the pain is my tooth
There will be times it's fine
and times where it's loose.

But when the hole is filled
And a new tooth in it's place
The pain is forgotten
along with the empty space.

So for good things to come,
There needs to be bad,
Because just like being happy
we have to be sad."

The mother was shocked,
And didn't know how
Her child understood all of this
simply from his mouth.

For life is like a tooth
And pain is like a hole
Before the joy of a new tooth,
you must experience being sore.

Heavenly Stars

For the stars in the heavens twinkle above
As the Earth looks up in a wondrous sigh.
Birds nor planes may never reach its love
Or shimmering light that brightens the sky.
Yet the brightness burns with fervent fire
As creatures below come out to pray
Their heart releases its deepest desire
For the twinkling lights to show them the way.
Though the stars themselves are not a proper guide
But for the lone traveler seeking his end,
The stars up above make the Earth find
A powerful being only heavenly sent.
So I look to the stars shining brightly so high
Knowing God is behind them up in the sky.