Lost

I think I'm going to run away
To a place where no one can find me.
New faces, a new life, a new day
And this way I'll get to live, get to be
Deep down inside who I really am.
They see my label, and I'm so much more.
Because they just don't seem to understand
Who I am, my inner core.
So I'll run away, as fast as I can go
It doesn't matter how, doesn't matter where
And when I'm gone, I hope they'll know
The pain was mine, it was never theirs.
So I run faster and faster each day
Looking forward hoping for the best
Trying to find out my very own way
Seeking an adventure, seeing it as a test.
But somewhere along this dangerous road
I seemed to have lost track of the light
I sit in the dark in the vast unknown
Feeling lost and empty unable to fight.

I didn't mean to hurt them, they had to have known
I wasn't thinking clearly, it was all a bunch of lies.
I didn't mean to leave them, I just had to go.
I couldn't bear it no longer, it made me want to cry.
But their pain still lingers within me here
Although I've run, I'm now long gone
Their worries, their guilt, their faces, their fears
Ring constant within me as a sad, sad song.
I ran away forever, only looking ahead,
I ran away from there, trying to find refuge
I ran away, I remember what I said
I ran away from there with nothing to run to.
I look back and see the damage I left behind me,
Questioning why I never stayed to fight
Realizing now I fled and chose defeat.
I just want one more chance to try and make it right.