Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Time to Start Something New, Goodbye to SDSU: A Look Back Before Graduation


On my way to my last class at SDSU, I couldn’t help but chuckle and reminisce on my very first freshman class on campus in a neighboring building. Boy, how times have changed. Fresh out of high school, I remember the excitement of waiting in line at Starbucks (the early days of my coffee addiction), walking to class with coffee in hand, thinking I was some big college hot shot ready to conquer the world. I can see it now: nose high up in the air with my oversized sunglasses, pretending I had some clue of what I was doing while imagining I was a Harvard collegiate genius on the sunny streets of San Diego. I dreamed and ignorantly believed that the next four years would be pure perfection, because hey, that’s what college was supposed to be.

I still remember it; I still remember myself back then, who I was and who I thought I was. But that was then and this is now. Four years later, on the foot of my graduation, I realize how much I’ve changed, how much I’ve grown, how things are different, and how some things are exactly the same.

And just as quickly as that first day went by, today will soon be gone, but hopefully not before I can record it on this blog. There are a couple of things I want to share in the few days I have left as I look back on my college experience. So, please allow me to shed some wisdom on what I’ve learned to those who can apply to their own lives, making their college years as close as possible to a freshman’s perception of college “perfection.”  


1.      Things will NOT go according to plan. Cliché. I know. But, much like most freshmen embarking on their first year of college, I had a four-year plan of what I wanted to do and who I wanted to become by the very end. I was a big believer in myself and my own abilities, and yes, a bit overconfident to say the least. Life turned out a little differently than I expected. Actually, make that a lot different. I recently started wondering if I would proud or disappointed at the way my life turned out these last few years, but then I remembered something my mom told me when I graduated high school: “Things may not always go according to plan, but sometimes plans change.” Plans change more frequently than you’ll imagine, whether you want them to or not. Take what you have, run with it, and expect the journey to be even better than you expected.

2.       Catch every opportunity thrown at you. I was extremely fortunate. Correction: I am extremely fortunate. I’ve had so many opportunities in the past few years—opportunities that I didn’t realize would be so beneficial until years later, and ones that I’m still reaping the rewards. I realize I’ve had a handful of opportunities presented to me through school, different organizations, my faith, my community, and past jobs and internships. I’ve been blessed. However, I also think of all the things I could’ve done and I should’ve done that I didn’t, and how things could have been different and much better if I did. Networking is scary. Taking charge is scary. Putting yourself out there is scary. Trust me, I know. Several years ago, I was the intern afraid to answer the phone, looking at it as if it were a ticking time bomb. Break out of your comfort zone and realize that it’s not enough to just do what you’re told, but in order to succeed, you must take charge and make experiences what you want them to be. In the end, networking and putting yourself out there is not just the icing on the cake in your career, but it’s the cake that will feed your future endeavors.

3.      Coming full circle with friends: Friends become acquaintances, acquaintances become strangers, and strangers become friends. Grieve the friends you’ve lost and be thankful for the ones you’ve gained. Accept the fact that people will come and go, but never forget who has been there for you all these years. Those people will grow to become more than friends—they’ll become your family. And trust me when I say, there is nothing better than a genuine supporter, a true confident, a beloved companion, and a best friend.

4.      Every day is like being in a classroom: I think back to that girl on her first day of college, scurrying to find the Arts & Letters Building, and I realize she had no idea who she was, what she was doing, or where she was going. She was lost, in more ways than one—and she never even knew it. But, it would be years later until she realized it, until she grew to learn more about herself and developed as an individual facing the real world instead of living in a fantasy. Granted I’m still learning about myself every single day, but these years have taught me more about my heart and my faith than I ever could’ve imagined or realized. Every day is a learning experience. Come to terms with the idea that there are more layers and meaning to your life than at first glance; all you have to do is allow time and reflection to unravel them.

5.      Things will get worse just as they get better. I’ve had some of the happiest times in my life in college, and sadly some of the darkest. With the good comes the bad, and often times, there’s nothing you can do about it. Embrace it; live it; learn from it; grow from it, and move on.

6.      Calling out your BS. I’ll admit, I BS-ed a lot of my college experience. I mean, who doesn’t? I never thought that when I was done I’d regret not doing better. I regret not taking certain classes to learn more about other fields, more about different aspects in my own field. I regret not trying my hardest in certain classes. I regret not caring enough and putting other aspects of my life above school. Even now, I have so much learning to do and realize how unprepared I still am. There’s only one problem: I’m at the point where there’s not much to do about it.

7.      Feed your social stomach. Don’t become a hermit. You will only be young and in college once, and though school and your career is important, make time for the people who matter and the things that truly matter. Enjoy the time you have with your friends and family and allow yourself to have a social life. Once these years are gone, there’s no way of getting them back.

8.      Say Thanks. Just like all your college papers, give credit to where credit is due. Thank the people that were there and helped you through. Thank God for never leaving your side. But most importantly, realize that you couldn’t have done it alone and you didn’t do anything alone. I certainly couldn’t; I certainly didn’t. So, thank you to those who were there, who are still there, and who will always be there.

9.      Don’t dwell on the “I didn’t.” Think of the “I did.” I didn’t do a lot of things that that freshman girl wish she could’ve, but I did do things that most people wish they could.  I loved, I lost, I learned, and I’m thankful for all of it. I can’t sit and dwell on the things I wish I could’ve done, but I must be thankful for the things I did.

With a small tear in my eye, I still can’t believe it’s over, just like I can’t believe it’s all about to begin. Here’s to four amazing years at SDSU, four amazing years of my life, and to many more amazing years to come.

Cheers to my last post as a college student and my first post as a person in the “real world.”

To the class of 2012: WE DID IT! 

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