It's a question I was posed with this week and am still racking my brain in trying to answer it. In the midst of ending one career path to journey upon another, I was asked one common and questioning cliche:
"Would you rather be the big fish in a small pond or get lost in the ocean?"
I'd be lying if I said it isn't something I thought about, but I never thought it'd be something I'd have to answer to.
The truth is, I've always felt my dreams were bigger than real life. Dreams that swelled my heart so large that reality was destined to fail in filling it. Not because they were unattainable or because they were impossible, but because some dreams must fail in order for others to be fulfilled. The dream I proudly live every single day is the dream of love so pure, so delicate, that only God himself could conjure and imagine. I'm blessed with extraordinary friendships, family and community that most search their entire lives for and fail to find.
And so, although I dreamed big, when it came to my career, I was okay swimming in my little pond. I was content with being a bigger fish. It was home.
But when the current picks up and fate pushes you towards the ocean, what do you choose then? Do you stay a big fish or consciously choose to swim among the sharks?
A lot has changed since I last wrote on here (though, ironically, much as remained the same), and in that time I've made one of the biggest career moves of my life. Well, two. The first being taking an unlikely job but meeting some of the most professional and talented characters that will undoubtedly be lifelong friends. The second, having taken place this week--accepting a job offer that may potentially be the biggest stepping stone God could have placed before me.
It's a big deal, people.
And though I'd rather not say just yet where I'm leaving or where I'm going, it's a bigger step than I could have anticipated for myself. I'm moving from my little pond to a place much closer to the ocean, and though I may not be swimming with sharks just yet, damn am I close. And my goodness-it's wonderfully frightening.
After all, what good is it to stay in your pond when you have the whole ocean to explore? What's the point of being the big fish if you have no room to grow and become bigger?
The best is yet to come, my friends. All I ask is that you pray this little fish can handle the ocean.
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